Life has so much to teach and so much to offer. But certain things are taught and learnt the harder way, and the product of it is the sweetest lesson of ones life.
Personally, one of the hardest thing I found is to patch-up with friend, that one has spoiled relations with, or, ones, existence of whom goes unacknowledged. Whether it happens or not depends on either side, both should be able to forgive other's mistake and admit own's, which is amicable compromise, that people fail to realize, or, even if they, fail to acknowledge owing to egos. But fortunately I had an amicable compromise, owing to wisdom I gained in my friends company.
She's been my consistent companion the day 1 of my college life. She was the only, who seemed to respect my existence, while the person standing beside me shook hands with everyone but me. The rest too like him were too busy making introductions elsewhere, which are false, fake, phony. Ask me how we met? I would have said, we just met, but as time went by, we became, from mere acquaintance to friends and all I can say is, if it wasn't for she who is so caring, loyal and compassionate, we would have never met and been best of companies at all. She walked elegantly through seemingly disappearing people, confident, conscious and aware of people she was making or perhaps wanting to make acquaintance with, to me. Magányos was the name of her. She was unassuming, always there to listen my thoughts, however depressing, dreamy, impractical they are. The best thing about being with her, is peace that she brings along with her, that I found in or with none, but in the subtle moments of her company. When she is and was around, I can't help seeing the worse in a positive light, in the hopeless a small hope, in a loss a small gain or win, in hate some love, in pauper the richness. Such was the change she brought in me, not that she is very hopeful, optimistic, worry-less, rich, but she was in peace with them. In short she seemed the peace, that could tame my agitated heart, she was a friend that I was blessed with. With her the time just seemed to fly by, hours and minutes condensing to just some beautiful moments. It was wonderful, till liefde passed by me, on one un-eventful ( you shall understand as you read :P ) day, giving my heart a slip. She was looking terrific, than Magányos. I ended up making friends with her buddies, hoping to know some of her from her mates. They were all nice, wonderful beings. They were enjoyable, but she wasn't comfortable with me as was she with them, perhaps that they were her friends for long time, but even my niceties couldn't help me past them, close to her heart, and the fear that I may lose her was killing me every moment and was causing pain. I wished her for me, she was in dreams, driving me desperate, and I was yielding to the obsession that she was becoming, that I was close to becoming mad. And then when I told this to her, she said back, "You have so much fear in you of future, but it takes courage to be with me. You are wonderful person to be with, perhaps not the right one". It was heart-breaking, but I had nothing but to give-in to what she told, which was as a matter of fact, a truth, that my conscience is well aware of, but been helpless about. During time, when I was getting ready to take my biggest lesson, totally unaware of it, I ignored Magányos, not deliberately though, but it happened. Why? Maybe, in my pursuit to impress liefdie, I became so obsessed that I became oblivious of her ( Magányos ) existence. Yet, she stood by word that bound us together. She patiently followed me throughout my pursuit always looking out when I may need help. And when I fell, feeling alone, I realized I wasn't alone.
Well, today when I think of this, I feel lot bad about my treatment, but if it wasn't for the big hug from her, I would have been a lone soul. Cheers to her !!!
Personally, one of the hardest thing I found is to patch-up with friend, that one has spoiled relations with, or, ones, existence of whom goes unacknowledged. Whether it happens or not depends on either side, both should be able to forgive other's mistake and admit own's, which is amicable compromise, that people fail to realize, or, even if they, fail to acknowledge owing to egos. But fortunately I had an amicable compromise, owing to wisdom I gained in my friends company.
She's been my consistent companion the day 1 of my college life. She was the only, who seemed to respect my existence, while the person standing beside me shook hands with everyone but me. The rest too like him were too busy making introductions elsewhere, which are false, fake, phony. Ask me how we met? I would have said, we just met, but as time went by, we became, from mere acquaintance to friends and all I can say is, if it wasn't for she who is so caring, loyal and compassionate, we would have never met and been best of companies at all. She walked elegantly through seemingly disappearing people, confident, conscious and aware of people she was making or perhaps wanting to make acquaintance with, to me. Magányos was the name of her. She was unassuming, always there to listen my thoughts, however depressing, dreamy, impractical they are. The best thing about being with her, is peace that she brings along with her, that I found in or with none, but in the subtle moments of her company. When she is and was around, I can't help seeing the worse in a positive light, in the hopeless a small hope, in a loss a small gain or win, in hate some love, in pauper the richness. Such was the change she brought in me, not that she is very hopeful, optimistic, worry-less, rich, but she was in peace with them. In short she seemed the peace, that could tame my agitated heart, she was a friend that I was blessed with. With her the time just seemed to fly by, hours and minutes condensing to just some beautiful moments. It was wonderful, till liefde passed by me, on one un-eventful ( you shall understand as you read :P ) day, giving my heart a slip. She was looking terrific, than Magányos. I ended up making friends with her buddies, hoping to know some of her from her mates. They were all nice, wonderful beings. They were enjoyable, but she wasn't comfortable with me as was she with them, perhaps that they were her friends for long time, but even my niceties couldn't help me past them, close to her heart, and the fear that I may lose her was killing me every moment and was causing pain. I wished her for me, she was in dreams, driving me desperate, and I was yielding to the obsession that she was becoming, that I was close to becoming mad. And then when I told this to her, she said back, "You have so much fear in you of future, but it takes courage to be with me. You are wonderful person to be with, perhaps not the right one". It was heart-breaking, but I had nothing but to give-in to what she told, which was as a matter of fact, a truth, that my conscience is well aware of, but been helpless about. During time, when I was getting ready to take my biggest lesson, totally unaware of it, I ignored Magányos, not deliberately though, but it happened. Why? Maybe, in my pursuit to impress liefdie, I became so obsessed that I became oblivious of her ( Magányos ) existence. Yet, she stood by word that bound us together. She patiently followed me throughout my pursuit always looking out when I may need help. And when I fell, feeling alone, I realized I wasn't alone.
Well, today when I think of this, I feel lot bad about my treatment, but if it wasn't for the big hug from her, I would have been a lone soul. Cheers to her !!!
